And while the loss part of it has overshadowed a lot of the good, I can definitely say I have re-prioritized some things. I am a person that loves to be busy busy busy, all the time. I usually have several projects, a couple of books, a stack of recipes, going at any one time. Some call it adult ADD, but I like to think of it as productive. Anyway, I came to the conclusion over the past few months that I actually don't like being so busy; that what I really want to do is sit with the people I love and just talk, or read a magazine on my couch. I'm trying to re-learn the art of doing nothing. That was actually my new year's resolution this year: to do less.
So, I made the decision to put my baking business on hold for now. Admitting that I can't do it all is very hard for me. I'm a people pleaser. I like to say 'yes', not 'no'. But I'm getting better at it. Slowly. The thing that was meant to be fun was becoming...a job. And that was never the point. It has actually been a huge relief, I have to say. With the exception of some work I'm doing with The Coffee Ethic, I'm only baking for fun now. Which is really fun! Novel concept.
What does "baking for fun" entail? Lemon yogurt cake that is so moist it you'll have to try hard to convince yourself it's good for you. I'm also on a quest for the perfect blondie. I'll have to get back to you on that one.
I'm also doing a lot of eating of other people's baked goods, like these amazing cinnamon rolls with a thick, buttery caramel icing that my mother makes:
Happy February.
